Po-mo definition

Postmodernity, then, can be described as a period of cultural disquiet. In the face of the betrayals and failures of past overarching metanarratives, culture-wide suspicion and incredulity takes hold. A single story, providing coherence to personal identity, grounding for ethical action and passion for life in history, is displaced by a carnivalesque existence of fragmentation, numbness and boredom. Final decisions based on rational analysis give way to the undecidability of keeping all options open, and the spiritual promiscuity of pop religion.

Walsh & Keesmaat, Colossians Remixed (p25)

#7 Everyman Pocket Poets...

Gerald Manley Hopkins.



It's possible you might expect John Milton to be turning up about now. But although my sympathies are far more Miltonic (Puritan, thrived under the Protectorate, disliked by Charles II) than Hopkins (introspective Jesuit priest), my desert island criteria lead me to choose him over Milton. Or rather his selected poems (in this rather lovely pocket edition from Everyman). If it was a case of 'complete works' I'd probably go for Milton - but in terms of the 'best of', it would be this volume.

When I first read GMH I wondered what I had come across, as it didn't sound like English. Which it wasn't really. I mean, the poems were made up of English words, but frequently the rules of grammar and syntax had vanished. Now, in some modern stuff I think this is just pretension. But with Hopkins I discovered there was reason to it. It's his 'in-scape' thing, which shows best in his nature poems - that (if I have this right) all created things have this inner dynamism, this self-existential energy, life and beauty - and in bringing this out in poems, normal language-rules take a back seat. But it's not a tumbling of words together that emerges; rather, the words must have been painstakingly selected, because not only do they reflect the inner sense and feeling of what he sees, the words also slot together, or blend, or build cumulative force - and almost it seems he is making the words 'taste' of the thing described.

Or possibly I have been eating too many herbal throat tablets. But I think I'm right.

For example:

I CAUGHT this morning morning’s minion, king-
dom of daylight’s dauphin, dapple-dawn-drawn Falcon (The Windhover)

which would get you marked down in class, but makes me almost taste a morning when one sees a hawk flying in dawn's light.

Or what I would think of as GMH's finest hour, God's Grandeur, which also (in lines 9&10) gives a tiny explanation of his 'in-scape' thinking:

THE world is charged with the grandeur of God.

It will flame out, like shining from shook foil;

It gathers to a greatness, like the ooze of oil

Crushed. Why do men then now not reck his rod?

Generations have trod, have trod, have trod;

And all is seared with trade; bleared, smeared with toil;

And wears man's smudge and shares man's smell: the soil

Is bare now, nor can foot feel, being shod.

And for all this, nature is never spent;

There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;

And though the last lights off the black West went

Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs --

Because the Holy Ghost over the bent

World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings.

Read it and weep - no one, I think, could ever write anything quite like that. As someone once told me, "That's the best 'ah!' in English literature".

Luther: joy of the Bible

Oh how great and glorious a thing it is to have before one the Word of God. With that we may feel at times joyous and secure; we never be in need of consolation, for we see before us, in all its brightness, the pure and right way. He who loses sight of the word of God, falls into disrepair; the voice of heaven no longer sustains him; he follows only the disorderly tendency of his heart, and of world vanity, which lead him on to his destruction.

Tabletalk, Word of God, 20

Three Men in a Boat #8

...by Jerome K Jerome...

It's a unique piece of literature, that was then emulated endlessly by other writers on other journeys. But the original is a classic. Narrated in the first person by 'J', it is on the one hand a genuine account of travel up the Thames in a bygone era, replete with historical and dramatic vignettes (wherein TV series like Griff Rhys Jones recent one on rivers, derive their origin); and also an utterly absurd comedy - Victorian manners, hypochondria, boating, pets...everything has that delightful, English silliness. There are daft events, but often the humour is wrapped up in J's monologues and digressions on dozens of subjects - sometimes silly in themselves, sometimes he is deadly ernest and only we know it's funny.

I think it's a lovely book, and would happily take it to a desert island: England described from a boat, and England unfolded from the observations of life, and England seen in the gentle comedy of life.

Luther: ultimacy of divinity

Let us not lose the Bible, but with diligence, in fear and invocation of God, read and preach it. While hat remains and flourishes, all prospers with the state; 'tis head and empress of all arts and faculties. Let but divinity fall, and I would not give a straw for the rest.

Tabletalk, Of God's Word, 6

Luther: strength from Scripture

When I find myself assailed by temptation, I forthwith lay hold of some text of the Bible, which Jesus extends to me; as this: that he died for me, whence I derive infinite hope.

Tabletalk, Of God's Word, point 4

Choosing where to act

There is an interesting interview with Dean Jones (the man who appeared in all those Disney films when I was a kid) at Christianity Today. Here's just one quote I liked (real arty types can take issue with this if they like, I don't mind) - on the criteria he uses in picking a film in which to appear:

How does your faith come into play when considering a script?

Jones: First of all, I won't blaspheme God. This immediately eliminates most scripts, but I see no reason, since I need all the help I can get, to encourage God to vacate the premises.

Herbert: Joseph's Coat

As usual, I had to read this a few times before it changed from confusing to touching (and I had to look up 'indite' in the dictionary). But then I saw it captures how God takes our suffering and changes it, does something with it:

Wounded I sing, tormented I indite,
Thrown down I fall into a bed, and rest:
Sorrow hath chang’d its note: such is his will,
Who changeth all things, as him pleaseth best.
     For well he knows, if but one grief and smart
Among my many had his full career,
Sure it would carry with it ev’n my heart,
And both would runn untill they found a bier
     To fetch the body; both being due to grief.
But he hath spoil’d the race; and giv’n to anguish
One of Joy's coats, 'ticing it with relief
To linger in me, and together languish.
     I live to show his power, who once did bring
     My joys to weep, and now my griefs to sing.

#9 Hamlet

That's right, I'm feeling inadequate because of Minternational's quantity of prizewinning books, so I'm pulling rank - Shakespeare! Kudos! Unless you have Homer on your list, I win!

I sometimes wonder why literature is taught to young teenagers, or at least why it is taught without context and preparation. Shakespeare was fairly unintelligible to me and to most of my colleagues; picking Macbeth because "it has lots of blood in it, and I know that will appeal to you" was not, in retrospect, the best way for our teacher to get us into the bard.

However, during my later years at school, and taking lit. at A level, I had to write an extended essay and I needed a unique theme. I chose Mental Decay in Shakespeare; if you know me, you may know why. And with my context for this theme, King Lear started to have some relevance, Macbeth started to make sense. But Hamlet stood out.

I'm not overly sure about taking it to a desert island, given its lack of cheer (although it does have that glimmer of the light of the dawn of hope at the very end). And I'm not someone who relishes all of his work by any means (I think many of the comedies are, far from works of genius, in fact proto-Carry On films, with lots of innuendo and rude jokes; I'm surprised no one shouts "Oooh Matron!"). But for me Hamlet is a practically seamless work of splendour, with the unfolding mystery, the moral dilemmas worked out in tortured but glowing lyricism, and the brooding atmosphere with a sense of timelessness, yet knowing time is ticking away to some kind of showdown. And I love the castle as the stage: it's a silent presence - not like Gormenghast, vast and terrifying in its labyrinth; but as a self-contained world which shows up the characters and story.

Anyway, it's pretty good. And actually, I quite liked Mel Gibson in the role, as improbable as that sounds. Aside from his death scene which would make Ernie Wise jealous, it was great to have a manly Hamlet for a change, and not someone flouncing about in tights. Lots of stuff was missing, but he spun that sword with verve.

#10 Out of the Silent Planet

At some point CS Lewis was bound to appear.

This is one of the firs SF books I read, and maybe one of the first Christian books, as there's a good deal of theology in it too. It's the first of three books featuring professor Ransom (whom, I think, bears some similarities to Tolkien).

On a hike in the English countryside he finds himself a victim of, effectively, a cosmic satanic plot. Drugged, kidnapped and placed on a space-ship he is propelled to Mars - a planet of entirely different creatures ans spiritual forces, and not effected as Earth by the ravages of the Fall.

I got caught up in Lewis' precise and easy prose from page one, and can remember being spellbound to the end, as a teenager, through the exploration of an alien world, and the weaving of the plot around effectively theological ideas.

Wearing suffering

Some days—but not most days, thanks to the manner of Jesus' life and death. Imagine Barack Obama putting on a bad suit or Angelina Jolie wearing an ugly dress. The suit wouldn't look bad, and that dress wouldn't be ugly. These are incredibly attractive people whose attractiveness spills over onto their clothing, changing its meaning and the way other people respond to it. If Obama or Jolie wear it, it's a good-looking outfit. If they wear it often enough, it becomes a good-looking outfit even when you or I wear it. God's Son did something similar by taking physical pain on his divine yet still-human person. He did not render pain itself beautiful. But his suffering made the enterprise of living with pain and illness larger and better than it had been before. He elevates all he touches. Just as his years of carpentry in Joseph's shop lend dignity and value to all honest work, so too the pain he bore lends dignity and value to every pain-filled day human beings live.

William J Stuntz (the article briefly lists his piercing sufferings, so we know the above is not abstract)
Christianity Today

#11 Sophie's World

Already a tussle to know which one to choose - it was nearly Tutus Groan, but on the basis of staying cheerful on a desert island, I've gone for Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder.

It's a mystery novel and a history of philosophy at the same time. As Sophie tries to unravel the mysteries of the plot, so she needs to understand the development of Western philosophy. So the book is really didactic, but given the subject, Gaarder does a good job of making it as pleasant as a story. The section on Jesus is a bit disappointing: even for a po-mo philosopher it doesn't credit Jesus with much influence, and he passes on quickly to more important things. But that aside, it's a painless way of learning the history of western thought.

Goldsworthy: NT effects on Psalms

Just started slowly wandering through Graeme Goldsworthy's Prayer and the Knowledge of God. Early on he makes an interesting point (I don't yet know how he is going to develop it), that we apply the coming of Jesus to a lot of OT issues, but not prayer...

[this issue occurs when] reading a passage from the OT and thinking about it without consciously relating it to the fulfilment of the OT in Christ. Some OT texts, such as those that deal with certain details of Israel's ceremonial law, cry out for us to make some adjustment for the fact that Jesus has come...But other faith matters in the OT, such as the prayers in the Psalms, are quite easily read as they stand and we simply assume the connection with ourselves.

Goldsworthy, p15.

Nouwen: choosing hope

"You are constantly facing choices. The question is whether you choose for God or for your own doubting self. You know what the right choice is , but your emotions, passions, and feelings keep suggesting you choose the self-rejecting way.
The root choice is to trust at all times that God is with you and will give you what you most need. Your self-rejecting emotions might say "It isn't going to work. I'm still suffering the same anguish I did six months ago. I will probably fall back into the old depressive patterns of acting and reacting. I haven't really changed." And on and on. It is hard not to listen to these voices. Still you know that these are not God's voice. God says to you,'I love you, I am with you, I want to see you come closer to me and experience the joy and peace of my presence. I want to give you a new heart and and new spirit. I want you to speak with my mouth, see with my eyes, and hear with my ears, touch with my hands. All that is mine is yours. Just trust me and let me be your God."
This is the voice to listen to. And that listening requires a real choice, not just once in awhile but every moment of each day and night. You can think yourself into a depression, you can talk yourself into low self-esteem, you can act in a self-rejecting way. But you always have a choice to think, speak and act in the Name of God and so move toward the Light, the Truth, and the Life.

Henri Nouwen

Addendum:
I recently found a bit more of this quote-

As you conclude this period of spiritual renewal, you are faced once again with a choice. You can choose to remember this time as a failed attempt to be completely reborn or you can also *choose to remember it as the precious time when God began new things in you that need to be brought to completion.* Your future depends on how you decide to remember your past. Choose for the truth of what you know. Do not let your still anxious emotions distract you. *As you keep choosing God, your emotions will gradually give up their rebellion and be converted to the truth in you.*

The Day Off ends

I don't often do this, in fact I never do this, but I want to briefly mention an obit from the news in a vaguely fanzine type way. Writer and director John Hughes died today.

The reason I mention him is, along with millions of other people of a certain age, his work kind of defines my late teenage years. OK, some of his stuff definitely plumbed the depths of teenage prurience (I wouldn't bother with 16 Candles again, and bits of Breakfast Club put me off permanently - though compared to contemporary teen-fare they are fairly AndyPandy).

But Ferris Bueller, Some Kind of Wonderful and, more relevant to a little later in life, She's Having a Baby, were kind of formative moments for me - just hearing the titles brings back endless summers, A-levels, and possibilities. On top of that was his ability to put a soundtrack together - outstanding compared to other fodder of the time. Would Suzanne Vega have made it so big without Left of Centre? Would Don't You (forget about me) be quite so iconic? Yello, Furniture, Flesh for Lulu, Psychedelic Furs, Bryan Ferry covering Van Morrison's Crazy Love.....And so on...

Well, I'm going to stop before I start sounding like a real blogger. But the end of an era all the same.

#12 Silver Hand

Actually this book was going to be the next one, but the #12 spot contains two books having a fight at the moment, so I thought I'd cheat and bring this one forward whilst the outcome is decided.

Stephen Lawhead is probably the most successful of modern Christian novelists (Left Behind excepted) and built up something of a cult following in the 80s and 90s. He started off with what, in my opinion, were great ideas and fairly mediocre writing, which then developed into really good ideas and good writing, and finally ended up as good writing with ordinary ideas. I have to admit I have not read his recent reworking of Robin Hood which is getting good reviews.

Bang in the middle of the good ideas and good writing came the Song of Albion trilogy. A celtic fantasy which intersects with our own time as the barriers between worlds is breaking down and wolves rome the dark streets of Oxford, it also had one overarching metaphor (which I won't spoil by revealing here, because it doesn't become apparent til the last chapter of book 3). It's a good adventure in a solid fantasy tradition, with some nice touches and only rare moments of kitsch, as an ordinary bloke from here ends up over there, but has to do something extraordinary to save both worlds.

Tech parenthood

Born into this vast technopoly, today's child understands her world primarily through mass media. Thanks to media's total-disclosure nature, she will be a world-weary 72-year-old by the time she reaches 12, but won't have the maturity of a medieval 12-year-old until about age 36. Ages 12 to 22 will be spent in mandatory survival training called higher education. Regardless of her primary course of study, her secondary course, undertaken when she is biologically fittest and physically strongest to raise children, will be the ironic but ironclad dogma that she must never consider having a child until she is economically, psychologically, and spiritually a fully realized autonomous self. If, after a decade of ingesting this dogma, she still has the desire to become a mother, she can only have at most two children.

If life's most meaningful work for couples is raising children, then it's a cynical system that requires the false choice between having children young, when a large family is physically possible but financially hard, or waiting until they can afford a large family, when fertility has dropped. Technology, it turns out, is a harsher taskmaster than biology, offering a world where the best form of birth control is economics, the best predictor of income is education, and the best deterrent to having children is guilt over failing to give them the very best a consumer society offers.

Meanwhile, the ocean of sorrow continues to fill with the tears of those who are childless or heartbroken by the lie that tells a woman she is free to be anything she wants, so long as she's a man about it.

Read Mercer Schuchardt, Christianity Today

Dickson: the hidden mission

Prayer is the hidden part of our mission...prayer is also the most basic part of our mission. Observing this reminds us that ultimately the mission is not ours but God's. If the fundamental gospel-promoting activity is hidden from us, it is clear that involvement in mission requires faith more than activism, dependence more than programmes, and humility more than boldness.

John Dickson, Promoting the Gospel, p65

#13 Whose Body?

Despite my affection for the Inklings and their associates, I had not read any Dorothy L Sayers (often, strangely, associated with them), until last year. This was after reading Keller's The Reason for God, wherein he uses Lord Peter Wimsey's world and Harriet Vane as a great illustration of the Incarnation. So off I tootled only to discover they are rare as goldust in second hand bookshops...until discovering one secluded bookshop with lots!

I'm not saying Whose Body? is the best, but that it's the first and so far I have only read the first two books of the series. For all I know the best is yet to come, and so I'd take that volume to my island. But for the moment, I'll settle for book No.1.

One reason I had not read them was the assumption it was a lot of posh people being posh (the price of seeing some episodes of the 1980s BBC series, as a child). Well, there are lots of posh people but I also found that Sayers (and thus Wimsey) has an incredibly self-aware wit, and some sections are laugh-out loud funny. At the same time it's a classic, labyrinthine mystery with an impossible crime that somehow must be solvable, but how? In this case, a body is found in bath - no one knows who he is, and it's impossible that he is even there. But there he is. Into this steps the younger Wimsey brother, so much more intelligent and alive than his heir-to-the-family-seat elder brother. Far too intelligent for the high-tea mincing nobility, and suffering post-traumatic-stress symptoms from the trenches of WWI, Lord Peter doggedly pursues the logic of the case, with his utterly loyal batman at his side, throwing one-liners all over the place. On top of this, he is a total bibliophile, likes reading book-catalogues, and attends book-sales.

We must have been seperated at birth.

Happy brirthday UnChristian

I just realised I missed the 3 year mark for this blog. Thanks Minty! Happy birthday blog!

Ortberg: Big God

I strongly believe that the way we live is a consequence of the size of our God. The problem many of us have is that our God is too small. We are not convinced that we are absolutely safe in the hands of a fully competent, all-knowing, ever-present God.

When we wake up in the morning, what happens if we live with a small God? We live in a constant state of fear and anxiety because everything depends on us. Our mood will be governed by our circumstances. We will live in a universe that leaves us deeply vulnerable.

When we have a chance to share our faith, we shrink back - what if we are rejected or cannot find the right words? It all depends on us.

We cannot be generous because our financial security depends on us.

When we need to give someone strong words of confrontation or challenge, we will be inclined to pull our punches. That is because if we don't live in the security of a big God's acceptance, we become slaves to what others think of us.

If we face the temptation to speak deceitful words to avoid pain, we will probably do it. We may try to get credit for something at work that does not belong to us, because we don't trust in a big God who sees in secret and will one day give reward.

If somebody gets mad at us or disapproves, we will get all twisted up in knots - we will not have the security of knowing that a giant God is watching out for us.

When human beings shrink God, they offer prayer without faith, work without passion, service without joy, suffering without hope. It results in fear, retreat, loss of vision and failure to persevere.

If You Want to Walk on Water.... p192-193.

Calvin on Ambrose on Jesus in prayer

He is our mouth, through which we speak to the Father; he is our eye through which we see the Father; he is our hand through which we offer ourselves to the Father. Unless he intercedes, there is no intercourse with God either for us or for all saints.

Calvin quoting Ambrose (Institutes, 3.20.21, Battles p879)

#14 Guards! Guards!

OK, I'm not making any argument that this is great literature, but it is one of the funniest books I have ever read.

Terry Pratchett is not exactly friendly to Christianity (I'm not sure he's especially unfriendly either though), so it's no good going looking for 'underlying motifs of redemption' etc. But he does write funny books. Well, I think about half of them are - some sequences do get repetitive.

Guards! Guards! stands out for me though as being a great story, with really mad humour, well drawn characters and some really good ideas. Woven through also are a myriad references to police movies from planet earth, but worked out in terms of Discworld. Dirty Harry, but a baby dragon with wind, instead of a gun; endless police show cliches; and, which I remember clearly though I must have read this 15 years ago, the great "million to one shot".

So, if you need something distracting and funny, I recokon you could do worse.

(And the dragon was called Eryl; and for those of you to whom this means something, yes I did read it whilst attending you-know-where)

Calvin: prayer

Words fail to explain how necessary prayer is, and in how many ways the exercise of prayer is profitable. Surely, with good reason, the Heavenly Father affirms that the only stronghold of safety is calling upon His name (cf.Joel 2:32). By so doing we invoke the presence
both of his providence, through which he watches over and guards our affairs,
and of his power, through which he sustains us, weak as we are and well-nigh overcome,
and of his goodness, through which he receives us, miserably burdened with sins, unto grace;
and in short, it is by prayerthat we call him to reveal himself as wholly present to us.

Hence comes an extraordinary peace and repose to our consciences. For having disclosed to the Lord the necessity that was pressing upon us, we even rest fully in the thought that none of our ills is hid from Him who, we are convinced, has both the will and the power to take the best care of us.

Institutes, 3.20.2 (Battles, p851)

The most genteel mid-life crisis continues...

Well, we're not stopping with songs, as you can see from minternational's first post. Now we're on to what we will refer to as 'literature' (ie not theology or non-fiction). We felt we ought to make that clear to our legions of fans, who now number several more than zero.

I've applied my usual aesthetic criterion: if I was stuck on a desert island/in a cave/in an attic avoiding relatives, which books would I want with me? So in countdown fashion, here's the first of my 15:

#15 Foundation by Isaac Asimov

This is pure SF, as opposed to just flying around in spaceships shooting things, and was some of the first real SF I read. I think it has been justly called the ultimate SF series (it really is a series, but me and minty didn't discuss the validity of series, so I'm plumping for volume1).

The central hypothesis is brilliant and simple, the more so for being invented way before modern statistical analysis. Hari Seldon discovers that given a big enough clump of humanity, one can actually predict what the future will be. This doesn't work with smaller numbers, but with a quadrillion people in the galaxy it can be done with startling accuracy.

Through this he discovers that the Galactic Empire will collapse and a dark age of 30,000 years will follow (his description of the beginning of the crumbling of empire has always stuck with me: no big wars or the like, just...grass growing through cracks in sidewalks and no one removes it; systems break down and no one fixes them... and in our day and age, when essential services are being withdrawn...hmmmmm).

But what if it could be stopped? Using this science, he develops a way in which the dark age can reduced to 1000 years and creates Foundation to do it. Outwardly it is a repository for all knowledge (50 years before wikipedia), which will be preserved for through the dark age; but unwittingly it is part of Seldon's brilliant plan to insert other dynamics into history in order to proactively limit the darkness...

Against this massive background characters play out stories, and plots unfold. Foundation's Edge is my favourite, but it is an epic sequence of books all round (I think there is one I have not read: to be honest I think Asimov went a bit funny in some ways towards the end of his career and I was starting to get a bit uncomfortable with some of his later stuff).

So there you go!

Calvin: treasure in heaven

I love the way he puts this:

We ought then to imitate what people do who determine to migrate to another place, where they have chosen a lasting abode. They send before them all their resources and do not grieve over lacking them for a time, for they deem themselves the happier the more goods they have where they will be for a long time. But if we believe heaven is our country, it is better to transmit our possessions thither than to keep them here where upon our sudden migration they would be lost to us. But how shall we transmit them? Surely by providing for the needs of the poor; whatever is paid out to them, the Lord reckons as given to Himself (MT.25:40). From this comes that notable promise: "He who gives to the poor lends to the Lord" (PROV.19:17). Likewise, "He who sows bountifully shall reap bountifully" (2COR.9:6). For what is devoted to our brothers out of the duty of love is deposited in the Lord's hand. He, as He is a faithful custodian, will one day repay it with plentiful interest. Are our duties, then, of such importance in God's sight that they are like riches hidden for us in God's hand? And who would shrink from saying this, when Scripture so often and openly attests it?

Institutes, 3.18.9 (Battles p.827)

Ortberg: Fear

Fear has created more practising heretics than bad theology ever has, for it makes us live as though we serve a limited, finite, partially present, semi-competent God.

John Ortberg, If You Want to Walk on Water..., p131

Robinson on Calvin

From a Christianity Today, including thoughts from Marilynne Robinson, interview:

Though it seems arcane to many today, Calvin's theology is not so unusual, Robinson maintains. Indeed, it brings comfort to the Christian soul.

"For Calvinism, we are all absolutely, that is equally, unworthy of, and dependent upon, the free intervention of grace," Robinson writes. "This is a harsh doctrine, but no harsher than others, since Christian tradition has always assumed that rather few would be saved, and has differed only in describing the form election would take. It might be said in defense of Christianity that it is unusual in a religion to agonize much over these issues of ultimate justice, though in one form or another every religion seems to have an elect. The Calvinist model at least allows for the mysteriousness of life. . . . The belief that we are all sinners gives us excellent grounds for forgiveness and self-forgiveness, and is kindlier than any expectation that we might be saints, even while it affirms the standards all of us fail to attain."

Ortberg: Sin

The problem with what might be called the "victorious Christian living" mindset is not that it takes sin too seriously. The problem is it inevitably becomes selective about which sins God hates the most, and they always end up being somebody else's sins. It misses the deeper layers of sin: sin not just as concrete acts of lying or cheating, but the sin of narcissism that infects my preaching and image-management that corrupts my conversations; the sin in my motives and emotions that is real but that I cannot simply turn off...

...

Frank Laubach preached the gospel to a tribe that had a long history of violence. The chief was so moved by Laubach's presentation that he accepted Christ on the spot. He then turned to Laubach in gratitude and said, "This is wonderful. Who do you want me to kill for you?"

That's his starting point.

I was raised in a church where the Scriptures were taught, given parents who loved me and each other, in a city where being a Protestant Christian was considered normal. So if I think I am superior to the chief because I'm less likely to kill somebody, I'm sadly deluded.

Leadership June 09

Calvin: purpose of affliction

He can best restrain this arrogance when He proves to us by experience not only the great incapacity but also the frailty under which we labour. Therefore He afflicts us either with disgrace or poverty, or bereavement, or disease or other calamities. Utterly unequal to bearing these, in so far as they touch us, we soon succumb to them. Thus humbled, we learn to call upon His power, which alone makes us stand fast under the weight of afflictions...

In peaceful times [holy persons] preened themselves on their great constancy and patience, only to learn when humbled by adversity that this was all hypocrisy. Believers warned, I say, by such proofs of their diseases, advance toward humility and so, sloughing off perverse confidence in the flesh, betake themselves to God's grace. Now when they have betaken themselves there they experience the presence of a divine power in which they have protection enough and to spare...

And it is of no slight importance for you to be cleansed of your blind love of self, that you may be made more nearly aware of your incapacity; to feel your own incapacity that you may learn to distrust yourself; to distrust yourself that you may transfer your trust to God; to rest with a trustful heart in God that, relying upon His help, you may persevere unconquered to the end; to take your stand in His grace that you may comprehend the truth of His promises; to have unquestioned certainty of His promises that your hope may thereby be strengthened.

Institutes 3.8.2-3 (Battles p703-4)

Oh Calvin!

Halfway through the massive Institutes is this one, entertaining sentence:

By nature, I love brevity.

Institutes 3.6.1 (Battles p685)

#25 ------?

So, here is my last one. We've been doing this for nearly 6 months you know! Our next phase of mid-life crisis is already in the pipeline, but here's to the end of a short era.

So what to choose? I thought I'd have one clear final boom. But there's a lot jostling about here. So before I put my final track, here's what nearly made it:

Cantaloop by US3
Owner of a Lonely Heart by Yes
Free At Last by DC Talk
Some Kind of Zombie by Audio Adrenaline
Waterloo Sunset by The Kinks
Hey Jude by The Beatles
Missing You by John Waite
Need Your Love by Fleetwood Mac

Instead I have chosen to go out with something ridiculous by a man who admits he has very little musical talent. But, despite it's lack of merit and the insults I will garner, it's fun!

Bitter-sweet sacrifice

Cut and pasted this from les Davey de France:

From today's Sud-Ouest, the story of an AirFrance air hostess who found out recently that she is pregnant and so was routinely switched from cabin duties to airport duties. She was due to have been on flight AF447 from Rio to Paris, but instead she was on check-in at Mérignac.

She says, "Because I was reassigned they had to find another air hostess to complete the team. I know that someone died in my place, and I ask myself in what circumstances. This baby that I'm carrying has already saved my life before I even give birth. I am divided between a double joie de vivre and a sense of blame."

If you owe your life to one who died in your place, if a promised child has saved your life, then you'll understand her feelings of double-joy mixed with shame - especially when that child is the one who died under God's condemnation in our place at the cross.

Upon that cross of Jesus my eye at times can see
The very dying form of one who suffered there for me;
And from my stricken heart with tears two wonders I confess;
The wonders of redeeming love and my unworthiness.

I take, O cross, thy shadow for my abiding place;
I ask no other sunshine than the sunshine of His face;
Content to let the world go by to know no gain or loss,
My sinful self my only shame, my glory all the cross.

Techno community

Taking his thoughts from Trinity Sunday, and the way God has determined to share his love in embodied humans in community, Mark Galli writes,

Every technology has the ability to enhance embodied life or to subvert it. Take transportation. Planes, trains, and automobiles allow us to enjoy embodied fellowship with people who live far away from us. This is a great good. But speedy, cheap transportation also makes possible the transient culture we live in, where people struggle to put down roots in one place and ground themselves in their neighborhood...

...Not a few of us find ourselves addicted to email. It is a wonderful thing to be able to connect with so many people so quickly and efficiently. But like many, I often find myself so drawn to my Blackberry and laptop that I fail to be present with the flesh and blood person who is standing before me. I look at them and pretend like I'm listening, but my mind strains to get back to my email. The technology is obviously undermining my ability to be present in an embodied way to the real person in front of me.

Mark Galli, Christianity Today

#24 Takin' Care of Business

Firstly I'd like to observe that I have now, by June 4th, exceeded my total blog entries for the whole of last year. I'm not sure if this is significant, but I felt it was historical at least.

Secondly, there is a bottleneck forming now we're nearly at the end of our mid-life crisis stage 1. This was nearly Sweet Child O'Mine - I don't like Guns&Roses at all, but every band seems to have its moment (even Hawkwind had Silver Machine, ie one actual proper song in 40 years). But in the end I have settled for something that may well cause humiliation as BTO have been a joke in the UK ever since Smashie and Nicie.

Anyway, here it is: a slightly sarcastic look at the rock'n'roll lifestyle:
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Parental faith

To parents: it may sound cliché, but we followed our father’s teaching in part because he practiced what he preached. Like all children, we needed to look up and see our parents looking up at a great God who has great things in store for those who love him.

Daughter of Bruce Ware, quoted on Discerning Reader reviewing Big Truths for Young Hearts

Calvin: sorrow

Repentance will produce confusion, groaning, displeasure with self, but...

...we must remember to exercise restraint, lest sorrow engulf us. For nothing more readily happens to fearful consciences than falling into despair. And also by this strategem, whomever Satan sees overwhelmed by the fear of God he more and more submerges in that deep whirlpool of sorrow that they may never rise again. That fear cannot, indeed, be too great which ends in humility, and does not depart from the hope of pardon. Nevertheless, in accordance with the apostle's injunction the sinner always ought to beware lest, while he worries himself into dissatisfaction weighed down by excessive fear, he become faint.

Institutes , 3.3.15 (Battles p.608-9)

Which also I think fits well with a great passage in 1 Samuel 12:

And all the people said to Samuel, “Pray for your servants to the Lord your God, that we may not die, for we have added to all our sins this evil, to ask for ourselves a king.” And Samuel said to the people, “Do not be afraid; you have done all this evil. Yet do not turn aside from following the Lord, but serve the Lord with all your heart. And do not turn aside after empty things that cannot profit or deliver, for they are empty. For the Lord will not forsake his people, for his great name's sake, because it has pleased the Lord to make you a people for himself.

#23 Love and Affection

Oooh! It's getting tough now. Too many songs and not enough space. I was going to write a long bit on the song that should have been here today, except it's not available. So instead here's just a short bit on this one.

I like this song. It's by Joan Armatrading. And it's a lot older than you might think! (1976)

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The ones that got away

I keep drawing blanks for online versions of some songs which should be in the list, so I thought I'd post the titles for further exploration to interested parties. Either these tracks are not permitted online, or the artists are not famous enough to be on there:

Seriously Unrehearsed by John Froud
Sleep by Riley Armstrong
Rolling Thunder by A-Ha

Talking about death

From a BBC interview, this is interesting from a pastoral perspective too:

If you're a young person and you're facing death then you will talk about it, as Jade Goody so evidently did, but deaths under 40, the majority of them are road traffic accidents, so there's no talking time and no preparation. Then 40-60, people have life-threatening illnesses and on the whole, they talk. But the overwhelming majority of deaths are older people and I can tell you from my own research that when older people say to their families, 'I want to talk to you about my funeral', which is a way of wanting to talk about death, a typical response is 'Oh, you don't want to talk about that stuff, that's depressing, you'll go on for a long time'. So if we can create opportunities with people who will listen carefully and be non-judgemental, then you can give them a real lift, because as older people face what we call finitude, the coming of the end of life, many of them become very, very anxious and full of guilt and they've got no-one to talk to

Malcolm Johnson, Professor of Gerontology at Bath
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/magazine/8058047.stm

#22 Goodbye Ordinary

I got this one off of FreeCCM, not having heard of MercyMe before. This is from their 2007 album All That is Within Me.

The song is a bit obvious (ie you don't really have to work at it) but I like the big sound, and the sentiment. And I think, maybe, the last minute or so makes it sound a bit like someone might be a Beatles fan.

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Calvin: battle of faith

...it is necessary to return to that division of flesh and spirit which we have mentioned elsewhere. It most clearly reveals itself at this point. Therefore the godly heart feels in itself a division because it is partly imbued with sweetness from its recognition of the divine goodness, partly grieves in bitterness from an awareness of its calamity; partly rests upon the promise of the gospel, partly trembles at the evidence of its own iniquity; partly rejoices at the expectation of life, partly shudders at death. This perception arises from imperfection of faith, since in the course of this present life it never goes so well with us that we are wholly cured of the disease of unbelief and entirely filled and possessed by faith. Hence arise those conflicts; when unbelief, which reposes in the remains of the flesh, rises up to attack the faith that has been inwardly conceived.

Institutes 3.2.18 (Battles p.564)

Conjugating life

Evelyn Underhill's famous observation in her little book The Spiritual Life:

"Most people spend their lives trying to conjugate the verbs 'to want,' 'to have' and 'to keep'— craving, clutching, clinging—when all the Spirit wills us to do is to conjugate the verb 'to be.'"

http://www.christianitytoday.com/bc/2009/mayjun/4.39.html?start=3

Calvin: Faith

For unbelief is so deeply rooted in our hearts, and we are so inclined to it, that not without hard struggle is each one able to persuade himself of what all confess with the mouth: namely, that God is faithful.

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Institutes, 3.2.15 (Battles p.560)

#21 Baker Street

OK, I know I'm not going to convince anyone of my cutting edge style with this one but....in terms of perfectly constructed tracks, this gets my vote.

There is of course the sax, which through overuse on adverts etc has become maybe too well known, but it's a great riff (originally planned for guitar, and only accidentally recorded for sax when the guitarist didn't show up). There's the searing guitar solo (best on the album version, rather than the single). But also, it's got an idea: the forlorn seeking for something, the answer so near yet so far.

Anyway, here it is: Spotify LastFM

Kendall: troubles

However, as we have seen, when one set of troubles subside, new ones replace them. You may ask, "Why does God allow this to happen?" Well, I think He has two reasons: First, we grow best when we experience some suffering. Jesus is more real to me in times of pain, but when everything goes smoothly, I coast along, and then God says, "RT, I don't have your attention now, do I?" Second, God allows us to face frequent trials because He does not want us to become too attached to this earth. He wants us to set our sights on our eternal destination.

RT Kendall, A Man After God's Own Heart, p193.

The ironic clock

Every technology has embedded spiritual consequences. The mechanical clock was created by Benedictine monks in the 13th century. It was designed to create more regular prayer intervals to enhance our devotion to God. The mechanical clock also gave birth to the Industrial Revolution and capitalism, because it created measurable, uniform time units to break up your day into. So a technology originally designed to enhance devotion to God also enhanced our devotion to mammon.

Shane Hipps, CT interview 5th May 2009.

#20 Every Breath You Take

Just a quick one as I am not, technically speaking, really here.

Leaving aside it's somewhat sinister overtones (this is Sting we're talking about), I just think this is one of the best crafted, well balanced, and warm sounds ever. It resonates on a deep level (which is why I think the disturbing aspect of the lyrics is often overlooked). One of those great moments.

Every Breath You Take on LastFM

#19 Take the Long Way Home

Bang up to date again. From Supertramp's biggest commercial success Breakfast in America, which produced two other huge singles. This is an atmosphere song - not deep like Mintie's last one. More a song to play in the car, a soundtrack for a tiring day when things aren't so good.

Mind you, I ought to add, that avoiding issues doesn't help in the long-term - just that 5 minutes driving to Supertramp probably won't hurt!

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#18 I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

Sorry - a bit late for finishing the third quarter of our mid-life crisis.

Surprisingly little to say about such a monster success really: I'm not a huge U2 fan, and only own The Joshua Tree. But I think it's a great album - and maybe U2 suffers for me in that, not only are the first three tracks their zenith, but actually they are three of the greatest tracks of the last 30 years. Getting everything in one go like that (although I also like Pride and bits and pieces from All That You Can't Leave Behind) has probably stalled me going much further with them. Still, there you go:

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Civil War 5: Darwin again

In other words, even before there existed a secularisation in the US brought on by new immigrants, scientific acceptance of evolution, the higher criticism of Scripture, and urban industrialism, Protestants during the Civil War had marginalised themselves as bearers of a religious perspective in the body politic.

Noll, p.161

Civil War 4

This is one of Mark Noll's summary paragraphs and puts clearly the damage done to theology by the war:

But the Civil War was won and slavery abolished not by theological orthodoxy but by military might and a hitherto unimaginable degree of industrial mobilisation. Although the war freed the slaves and gave African Americans an equal claim to citizenship, it did not provide the moral energy required for rooting equal rights in the subsoil of American society or for planting equal opportunity throughout the land... [the war] did not offer clear moral guidance as to how the mobilisation could be put to use for the good of all citizens. The evangelical Protestant traditions that had done so much to shape society before the war did possess theological resources to address both America's deeply ingrained racism and its burgeoning industrial revolution. But the Civil War took the steam out of Protestants' moral energy...The theology that had risen to pre-eminence in the early 19th century continued to work effectively for vast multitudes in private; but because of its public failing during the war, it had little to offer American society more generally in the decades that followed the war.

Noll, p.160

300!

Well, I wondered whether this blog would be short lived. But my online scrapbook seems to be growing.

It is traditional for me to now say: thanks Minternational!

Invocation 2

The main body of the prayer of invocation, I see as the petition "Hear us in the name of your Son". The relationship between Father and Son is the basis of the Christian approach to God...Christian worship has its logic in the doctrine of the Trinity. It is profoundly trinitarian. Our worship is part of the relationship between the persons of the Trinity. It is part of what has sometimes been called the inner trinitarian conversation. It is part of the homage of the Son to the Father. For this reason, therefore, we worship in the name of the Son. The relationship goes in both directions. Our prayer is part of the outpourng of the love of the Father to the Son. It is in Christ that we share in the fellowship of the house of the Father, that we sit at His table and are fed by His bread and share his cup. Our worship participates in the love of the Father to the Son and in the love of the Son for the Father. When we proclaim the gospel in Christ's name, baptise, and teach what He has commanded in His name, this is part of the obedience of the Son to the Father. But it is also part of the Father's glorification of the Son. In the ministry of preaching and teaching that we perform in Christ's name, Christ is glorified. Human hearts are changed and disciples are made of all nations - and thus the Father is setting all things under the feet of the Son, so that at last Christ is Lord of all. The Invocation therefore, has as one of its cardinal concerns this relationship between the Father and Son.

Old, p.16

Calvin: OT temporal judgments

Reading through the Bible in a year actually increases the sense of physical judgment in the OT, which is far from comfortable. Today read these words from Calvin which are an interesting thought-starter in this area:

Thus as God's benefits were more conspicuous in earthly things [the land, harvests, peace etc], so also were his punishments. The ignorant, not considering this analogy and congruity, to call it that, between punishments and rewards, wonder at such great changeableness in God. He, who was once so prompt to mete out stern and terrifying punishments for every human transgression, now seems to have laid aside his former wrathful mood and punishes much more gently and rarely. Why, on that account, they even go so far as to imagine different gods for the Old and New testaments, like the Manichees! But we shall readily dispose of these misgivings if we turn our attention to this dispensation of God which I have noted. He willed that, for the time during which he gave his covenant to the people of Israel in a veiled form, the grace of future and eternal happiness be signified and figured under earthly benefits, the gravity of spiritual death under physical punishments.

Institutes 2.9.3 (Battles, p.452-3)

He gets everywhere...

Although they have had a go at the quotation in order to emphasise their product. It should read:

You can't get a book long enough, or a cup of tea big enough, or a book long enough, to suit me.

Civil War 3 (providence)

Another interesting stress point concerned Providence. Not only were many on both sides claiming authority from the Bible, they also believed that God was involved in human affairs. This led to commentators and preachers from North and South interpreting events, battles, decisions etc within the context of what God was doing - and with a great deal of certainty too.

But as the war dragged on, fatalities increased, and deeper complexities became apparent, this certainty in providence also became an issue of weakness. Contradictory interpretations, hideous turns of event...and then even after the war, both sides interpreting the outcome as endorsing their view - either as total vindication, or as discipline on a sinful people.

In the midst of this, maybe it was natural to slide towards thinking the real resolution of the war was not God but force of arms, organisation and management, and industrial mobilisation? And so 20th century America?

#17 There is Only You

Posting early for Easter, this is one of my favourite Christian songs ever.

The Smalltown Poets not only have a great name for a band, but really that's their sound too: it's so unassuming it's easy to pass them by. But repeated listens draw you in to one of the most sincere and thought provoking bands around.

There is Only You is a great song about our hearts and God. It's just such a same that it is not available to listen to online, and I have to post the video instead. Especially as the video, as nice as it is, really has absolutely nothing to do with the song (except perhaps the human tendency towards selfishness). So, below are the lyrics and may I advise clicking on Youtube, then clicking back here to see the words, rather than letting the video suggest what the song is about? Also, sorry you can't get the great bass-work on here...

Growing more uneasy with every question asked
It seems you're jealous of my interests
And the graven things I've cast
Waking resolutions of twenty years or more
That I would disallow golden cows my favor anymore

Your wishes set in stone, I broke the first of ten
I've cleared this temple out come take your place again

There is only You
There is only You

Tiptoe from an awkward scene
Not fooling anyone
Am I dumb enough to kneel with my accusers
Or brave enough to run

Petty daggers bounce weakly off my back
I'm leaving breathless gods and secrets in my tracks
Your wishes set in stone, I broke the first of ten
I've cleared this temple out come take Your place again

There is only You
There is only You, believe me
There is only You
There is only You

To a thousand generations
Of the faithful man
You will show Your favor Lord

There is only You (Love earth can't replace)
There is only You, believe me (Heaven can't erase)
There is only You (Find me on my penitent face)
There is only You

Calvin: theft

Calvin expounds the commandments very broadly, and this one for the 8th commandment is a helpful example:

For he who does not carry out what he owes to others [money or honour or good work etc ] according to the responsibility of his own calling both withholds and appropriates what is another's

We will duly obey this commandment then, if, content with our lot, we are zealous only to make honest and lawful gain; if we do not seek to become wealthy through injustice, nor attempt to deprive our neighbour of his goods to increase our own; if we do not strive to heap up riches cruelly wrung from the blood of others...On the other hand, let this be our constant aim: faithfully to help all men by our counsel and aid to keep what us theirs...

Institutes, 2.8.45-46 (Battles, p.409-10)

#16 I Heard it Through the Grapevine

I'm no Marvin Gaye aficionado, but I think this has to be one of the nearest-to-perfect singles ever produced. I don't know what it is, but the atmosphere, production, understated backing...somehow it all works to perfection. That's it really.

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Alongside its quality is, maybe, also that I first heard it in the way it was originally heard: on an old Dansette box record player, with a scratchy 45rpm single (re-released for the jeans commercial, and with a big hole in the middle because we could go down to Braddicks Emporium and by ex-juke-box singles for 10p!)

Civil War 2

Another of Mark Noll's suggestions as to the nature of the theological impact on the authority of Scripture is fascinating. It seems to go like this:

1. The pro-slavery argument was very simple and straightforward: just read the passages of Scripture that plainly talk about slavery - they never condemn it.
2. The abolitionist preachers turn to their Bible to proof text and find this is basically true, and start talking about the overall emphasis of the Bible being respect for all people, demonstrated through loving action. This sounds a bit like not having a good response to point 1, and when seen in the context of a rising liberalism which states the Bible is great but it has bits which more developed peoples need to reject - well, to people who take the Bible seriously it starts to sound like anti-slavery = anti-bible. Support abolition and you will abolish the Bible as well!
3. The more nuanced anti-slavery biblical arguments (which require historical knowledge and a more careful reading of scripture) eg. the disparity between ancient Israelite slavery and the US mass-industry + kidnapping and dehumanising; the fact that Israel were only allowed to buy people from outside the chosen nation - so who are the heathen now? And even if we can identify them, why don't we set them free when converted to Christianity and therefore un-heathened? These required much more thought and theological reflection than the previous two positions.

Noll contends that common-sense and suspicion of those in authority were American characteristics: and as these arguments did not lie plain on the surface, and required intellectuals to articulate, they are suspect.

So, Christians missed the strong argument because it was subtle...and then took extreme positions as a result. And a theological disagreement could then only be resolved by war. War instead of nuance...

#15 Allentown

Only ten left to go!

Jumping forward from Minternational's last one, we get really up to date and trendy - all the way to 1982.

The big problem for Billy Joel in the UK is that he only had one massively successful album really: Innocent Man which was in a sense a 'concept album': a tribute to the music he grew up with in the 1960s. But this one big exposure made most people assume he was a latter day rock 'n' roll wannabe. This pigeonholed him and completely missed the point of what he did - piano based lyric-driven pieces.

I'm not sure which, if any, of his albums would make my list, but the number of individual songs that could be picked is huge, and selecting one is difficult. I've gone for Allentown because it kind of covers several aspects of his work: melodic, lyrical and with a point (mass unemployment in the early 80s).
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I almost chose one which was not a big hit and probably remains an invisible album track:
Vienna

Repentance

It is important to consider how the gospel affects and transforms the act of repentance. In 'religion' the purpose of repentance is basically to keep God happy so he will continue to bless you and answer your prayers. This means that 'religious repentance' is a) selfish, b) self-righteous, c) bitter all the way to the bottom. But in the gospel the purpose of repentance is to repeatedly tap into the joy of our union with Christ in order to weaken our need to do anything contrary to God's heart.

Tim Keller, All of Life is Repentance

Free Church Lent?

Given our free-church tendency to ignore the church calendar, especially any difficult bits, I couldn't help wonder if someone from our sector was behind this.
(from Imago Fidei)

Freedom

To be modern is to be torn in two. We celebrate freedom as if we can do anything we want, if we put our minds to it. At the same time, we bemoan the way our genes, our childhood, and social forces determine everything we do. When we grow bald, lose our temper, or get laid off, experts tell us that we really have no choice in the matter. Life is preordained by factors that outflank our feeble will. Yet at the same time we celebrate will power as if everything is contingent and subject to our control. The decline of providence has left us intellectually schizophrenic. We define freedom as the opposite of submission and obedience but end up feeling hardly free at all.

Stephen H Webb, Books & Culture, 31st March 2009

I really don't know...

...what to say about this:

http://pastorinabox.com/about.php

Civil War: America's Darwin?

Just started reading The Civil War as a Theological Crisis by Mark Noll. Only read the first few pages but a thought (unsubstantiated at the moment) struck me.

I think Noll's argument will be that the US Civil War accelerated the loss of the Bible perceived as authoritative in America. The crux: both sides of the slavery debate equally claimed the Bible as justifying their position. Suddenly, what many had assumed with confidence was a book which gave clear moral guidance for all of life, was now being used to argue two utterly opposed points of view. And this led to one of the most devastating wars in history. This shook belief in Scripture, and also opened the door for some to claim the Bible was OK but could be trumped by other matters of principle.

This sounds similar to the effect of Darwinism on Victorian Britain. And then: given that the majority of Americans today believe God created the world, it occurred to me that Darwinism has not had the same effect in the US as in Europe; at least not to the same degree. And yet the effective loss of Scripture as dependable for all society is similar. Perhaps the Civil War was, to some degree, America's Darwin?

Calvin: uses of Law

Given all the things I heard as a young Christian which denigrated the OT Law, it's nice to read Calvin on it and how he isolates three continuing purposes of the Law:

1. It makes clear to us that we have no righteousness before God, and so removes all pride in ourselves and drives us to God for mercy.
2. It restrains wickedness in humanity - in particular, people who do not want God but are afraid of His wrath against sin, and so moderate their behaviour. This benefits society. (And arguably this is what we see unravelling in the UK now)
3. For Christians it helps us to live according to God's will, exhorting us to progress.

Luther: assurance

Martin Luther once said, "I am so glad that God said He 'so loved the world...that whosoever believeth should not perish', because even if God had said that He loved Martin Luther , that if Martin Luther believed Martin Luther would not perish, I would be afraid He was referring to another Martin Luther."

Quoted RT Kendall A Man After God's Own Heart p 170

#14 Roll Over Beethoven

Here's one for the weekend.

OK I'm aware that there was a long period of time when owning an ELO album was not something to be admitted in public; borrowing Out of the Blue required a brown paper bag. I'm not for a moment suggesting they were deep and meaningful (although, alarmingly, I had a friend who said he was deeply moved by their lyrics - he was very intelligent, had a significant job and, worse, he meant it). But they were (after a certain point, and especially in the Jeff Lynne years) relentlessly cheerful and great fun to hear and watch - oh for a band that lands in a giant spaceship!

So...Roll Over Beethoven in the annals of fun rock was like a planetary conjunction: Chuck Berry rock'n'roll referencing the contrast with classical music, meets the rock band with classical pretensions - oh for a band that plays cellos on their heads! Just how pretentious can be seen in the Roy Wood years (for evidence that they were on herbal throat tablets, try this - is this really the man behind Wizard?). This is the band, believe it or not, that Lennon said represented a direction The Beatles would have taken if they had stayed together.

Anyway, here's the version I'm used to: LastFM Spotify
And here is what I have just discovered is the album version.
Not 'arf!

Invocation

The God of Scripture is not the God of a thousand names. The inventing of glorious names for God is not regarded as an open field for human creativity. That Jesus should teach us to invoke God as Father was a messianic act of unique significance. In the Judeo-Christian tradition, it is God's prerogative to reveal His name.

Hughes Oliphant Old, Leading in Prayer, p12&13

Caffeineated spiders

Apparently this is absolutely legit

Trials of calling

Perhaps God has chosen you for a task that no one can do but you. Is he trying to get your attention? Is he testing your mettle. God was right in choosing you, but you justify his choice by the way you react in times of trial. Do you despair, indulge in self-pity or become angry with God, or do you find your strength to overcome in him alone?

RT Kendall, A Man After God's Own Heart, p.169-70

Caffeinate

On the basis that no matter what anyone says about coffee, one is still likely to drink it - here are some figures on what's likely to fuel/fry your brain most. For me, more than one cup of filter coffee in any 2 hour period and I start to oscillate, bodily, and talk fasterandfastandfaster. So I'll stick with where I am. But notice the pointlessness of energy-boosting-fizzy drinks compared to an espresso!

In milligrams of caffeine per ounce of beverage:

• Coffee (brewed): 13.44
• Coffee (drip): 18.12
• Coffee (espresso): 51.33
• Coffee (instant): 7.12

• Coca-Cola Classic: 2.88
• Diet Coke: 3.75
• Dr Pepper: 3.42
• Mountain Dew: 4.58
• Red Bull: 9.64

#13 Sold Me Down the River

Over halfway!!! So time to up the volume...

Change was three songs to long and got a bit samey, but was still good for at least two reasons:
1. It encapsulated the Angry Young Welshman, bitter at what had happened, but trying to find hope (eg A New South Wales)
2. It had several guitar-hero-I-want-to-be-a-rock-star moments.

Here's my favourite: Sold Me Down the River (only on Spotify cos I want the album version with the big instrumental break)

Sayers: cross shock

It is curious that people who are filled with horrified indignation whenever a cat kills a sparrow can hear the story of the killing of God told Sunday after Sunday and not experience any shock at all.

Dorothy L. Sayers

#12 Music for a Found Harmonium

I've been mulling over where to go next, especially as Minternational's songs have all been taking a definitely meaningful turn...and quite a few of mine aren't...errr...quite so meaningful. So I have paused on the loud and shallow for a moment, and cheated by going instrumental.

There was a time when mostly everything I listened to was instrumental: multi-layered, long, involved pieces. It might be the sound-colour synesthesia, which means the more layers and activity, the bigger the 'pictures' (I could get quite spaced out as a teenager on long, complex compositions). That hasn't changed but is more dilute with other kinds of stuff. The Penguin Cafe Orchestra isn't a 'band' I have submerged myself into as much as some others: it's generally not as layered or developed BUT some of their short pieces are great.

The mind behind them was Simon Jeffes, who sadly died from a tumour many years ago. Trying to find a way between the structure of classical music and the limitations of the rock format, he became influenced by ethnic music - and somehow it all got fused together in dreamlike tracks. The story behind the band's name is lovely: lying on a beach one day, he suddenly found he was writing a poem in his mind:

I am the proprietor of the Penguin Café, I will tell you things at random...

He goes on to describe the freedom of spontaniety etc. And the Orchestra is the in-house band for this cafe.

As usual I could have chosen a number of tracks, but I have plumped for the archetypal PCO track - which I first heard on a film trailer in the late 80s, and tracked it down; more recently a guitar version was used on the re-launch adverts for the ill-fated MFI furniture company.

So here is Music for a Found Harmonium. But also check out, Perpetuum Mobile (which is one of those tracks running through my head whilst trying to work out God's plan for our future, over the last 18months)

Herbert: An Offering

I read this through the other night and was initially bemused. I suspect most poems seem like verbal noise until read several times. By the third time through I realised this was a profound presentation of uniting the heart in a life of worship to God:

Come, bring thy gift. If blessings were as slow
As men's returns, what would become of fools?
What hast thou there? a heart? but is it pure?
Search well and see; for hearts have many holes.
Yet one pure heart is nothing to bestow:
In Christ two natures met to be thy cure.

O that within us hearts had propagation,
Since many gifts do challenge many hearts!
Yet one, if good, may title to a number;
And single things grow fruitful by deserts.
In public judgements one may be a nation,
And fence a plague, while others sleep and slumber.

But all I fear is lest thy heart displease,
As neither good, nor one: so oft divisions
Thy lusts have made, and not thy lusts alone;
Thy passions also have their set partitions.
These parcel out thy heart: recover these,
And thou mayst offer many gifts in one.

There is a balsam, or indeed a blood,
Dropping from heav’n, which doth both cleanse and close
All sorts of wounds; of such strange force it is.
Seek out this All-heal, and seek no repose,
Until thou find and use it to thy good:
Then bring thy gift, and let thy hymn be this;
 

                         Since my sadness
                         Into gladness
Lord thou dost convert,
                         O accept
                         What thou hast kept,
As thy due desert.

                         Had I many,
                         Had I any,
(For this heart is none)
                         All were thine
                         And none of mine:
Surely thine alone.

                         Yet thy favour
                         May give savour
To this poor oblation;
                         And it raise
                         To be thy praise,
And be my salvation.

#11 Heartbeat City

Not really reflecting the depth of Minternational's last selection, this track is by post-punk new-wave electro pop The Cars. However, they were pretty clever and a lot of fun and (this is important) they barely moved whilst on stage, preferring robot arms with TV screens on them to do the visual dynamics. And one profound item in their favour: they proved you could be really geeky looking and still be a rock star and marry a supermodel (look up Rick Ocasek). For me, that was inspiring. Ah! The 1980s!

I liked lots of their stuff, but this is probably my favourite - one of those mood-moments I suspect, it's a staring-out-the-window, or urban commute in the dusk tracks.

Only on Spotify and youtube I'm afraid.

http://open.spotify.com/track/0a8IsvS3FmdKQKZZRrVdn7

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOIfVvDeu24


(if you want a sample of their more cheerful stuff try You Might Think)

#10 Home Town

I was very impressed with Pressing On. No.10 isn't much like Dylan though.

I bought the best of Joe Jackson on the strength of having heard Is She Really Going Out with Him? and Stepping Out. But this song stuck with me. I suspect it was my time of life (!) - about 20. The album contained 19 Forever which resonated with my awareness that actually that wasn't going to happen. And then Home Town: about how as we grow older and get caught up in so much stuff we just forget what lies at the foundation, what used to be...

Of all the stupid things I could have thought
This was the worst
I started to believe
That I was born at seventeen
And all the stupid things
The letters and the broken verse
Stayed hidden at the bottom of the drawer
They'd always been.
And now I plough through piles
Of bills, receipts and credit cards
And tickets and the Daily News
And sometimes I just . . .
Wanna go back to my home town

And how we just don't bother, the past seems so small - but we have lost something.

We're never married
Never faithful,
not to any town
But we never leave the past behind
We just accumulate
So sometimes when the music stops
I seem to hear a distant sound
Of waves and seagulls
Football crowds and church bells
And I . . .
Wanna go back to my home town

Strangely, I now once again hear church bells, seagulls, and waves!

This really is an all-time favourite and it deserves to be well known (but isn't!) - here it is.

Parabolic

A friend of mine is, I think, a good poet. Here's one of his I like:

On this October beach, as the pale sun sinks,

the mind’s tide slides back across the naked shingles,

and the flotsam and jetsam of some thirty years,

till I am the skinny silhouette of a lad

skimming stones with his dad:

stooping together to look for the best ones;

hooking them into the sling of the finger;

copying the slope of his stance, the swoop of his action;

trying to make them skim, like him.

But sometimes a stone that seems the part,

sits flat in the palm, fits fine in the finger,

will fail at the first

as it slices a cynical slot in the water

and sinks like the stone it was from the start.

Though such a stone can skip

a beat, loving to leap through the falling dark,

tracing its single spectacular arc

above the horizon’s straight, grey axis.

Yet best of all is sometimes when;

One, two, three, four, five sixseveiniten;

it bounces beyond the logic of number,

walks on the water, slides to a standstill,

and winks a watery eye at the frowning sky;

defying density,

momentarily.

Copyright Martin Yates

#9 The Sound of Silence

Well, we have crossed the 1/3 mark with me and minternational living out our mid-life crisis in a cheap and harmless manner...

I went through a minor Simon & Garfunkel stage a long, long time ago. This song remained lodged somewhere in my head. There's something about it that seems to stop time, with a spine-tingling effect.

I'm sure it must be locked into its 60s cultural background, but to me it is a song which seems to fit many times and moments: that sense of dislocation, and isolation and search for meaning. The idea that things fall apart but maybe in the sound of silence the centre can hold.

Or maybe that's nothing to do with it and I've been overdoing the herbal throat tablets.

However, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway wall", whatever it means, gets me every time.

Here it is.